Shopping Splurge!

So let's see - I splurged a lot: I bought an expensive purse, a giant LoveSac (it's like a bean bag, but with foam and it's super comfy), I got a haircut, getting my hair dyed this Friday, and I got a tattoo. Geez, i'm being a wild child. But I never get the time to spend anything on myself, I've always worked hard and spent it on necessities, that includes school tuition, books, food, etc. The only difference this time is i'm going to get things I want and necessities and rent. So I have to work harder, that includes finding the right SD and keeping him happy. And I think I splurged because I like to go shopping when I feel sad or upset. But I got in a huge funk of being depressed that I just had to buy everything I wanted no matter how pricey it was (there goes my paycheck - I work minimum wage in long tiring hours). I guess it's not a good way of dealing with stress, but it's better than harming myself. Why was I depressed? Well a lot of personal reasons of why I became a SB and my grandfather is dying. It's actually been decided his funeral is this weekend..

Anywho, besides that - here's to keep you updated on my adventure:

So remember that SD I talked about that promised an allowance but kind of stopped talking after our first meet up? He contacted me again, it's weird. He only wants to talk when he wants to meet up again.. But he promised the allowance on a debit card or something and I can just use it when I want to get things. Should I trust him?

And as for Mr. BF, he set the airplane tickets for me to meet up with him in 3 weeks for 3 days. So that's pretty exciting and he also planned another trip in August. There's a teeny problem though, remember how I said Mr. BF wants me to be his girlfriend? Well he gets jealous and asks me questions about other SD's and if there are others. Recently, Mr. Flirt contacted me - he's from New York and sounds really sweet and nice, but I don't know what he looks like and he's my parents age (scary to think of it that way). Well I told Mr. BF, "Oh i'm just talking with him that's all" since he asked me about others. And he got all ":(". But I don't even know if I should even further anything with Mr. Flirt, his age kind of rattles me and he's from out of state also. But he's super sweet, he said he never contacts people from out of the region, but he accidentally came across my profile and was breathless and just had to contact me. He also told me about his previous experiences with his past SB's and he sounds very gentlemanly. AH! I don't know what to do.

And at the same time I have not gotten any allowance as of yet, I'm thinking of furthering my search onto other sites, but i'm scared what I might get myself into. But I already went through halfway in this situation, so I can't back out now.